Doing ... Thinking

I'm good at doing, but not thinking enough.

I know how to do, I do fast, I do much.
But I have let 'doing' to enhance more than thinking.

REMEMBER, to think more, to think much more than what I see, more than what I read.

do 'thinking' more than do 'doing'~

Doubt

Did I do the right thing? Did I make the right choice? I know I'm not that good, but using the word disappointed..ya, I suppose I would use it on myself as well. Tensed for being expected high.

Time is real tight for me to do everythg so that shall mean I should be used to the place, to the environment, to the time zone, to the culture, in no time. And start with everythg right away. There is no time tolerance for me. Well, I guess I didn't really prepared my mind well enough before I came. I guess I'm a slow fast learner.

Always, there's some pains before I can actually gain..

it's time...

到牛津5天了，看着Bones第八季的第五集时，看到这段

You've been great, but I think we both know it's time I face the world on my own.

突然觉得好像那天我从建伟家出来，要飞来英国时的感受… 虽然人是在牛津，但是还是缺乏那份的真实感。昨晚还梦见我在马来西亚，买不到机票，不能飞了。醒来后才想到自己已经是在牛津了。不知那是一份的失落感还是什么…也许，是还没机会去和人交流。等星期六吧，等下星期吧。

还是要对自己说，it's time I face the world on my own. 当然，还有上帝在陪我，周围再怎么的不顺利，再怎么的不熟悉，神的话我还是熟悉，祂的带领还是最可以依赖的…

NOW

Now there is only one thing that I can do--wait
He knows the time is near
He  knows I am anxious
but He calms me down
He reassures me with Himself

This is not the only positive reply
but others have failed, this is more promising
He asks me to be patient
to wait for His time to come,  His will be done

21/7

从Camp Cameron回来的路上，在巴士站等转巴士的期间，看到了一件不知要怎样去回应的事。

那天，我买了车票后，就找个地方放行李，等巴士。突然，听见后面传来骂人的声音。转过头，看到一个人在对着另一个人骂。原本没什么在意。骂人嘛，不少见。突然，看到骂人的人刮了另一人一巴掌。说实话，是有点吓到。我就开始专注一点听，看是什么事。那人又继续骂了两句，又连续刮了另一人两巴掌，把那人的墨镜刮飞了。过后骂人的人就走了。

那骂人的人是巴士票售票员。照我所听见的，应该是那个被骂的人去问了巴士票价后，不知是沟通问题还是售票员手脚太快，就打印了巴士票出来。但是那个人已经向另一家巴士公司买了车票。那售票员不甘心亏了钱，就来找那人算账。

在我脑海里浮现的是：那售票员是因何如此行？那被骂的人，又有什么的感受？被骂的人没有回嘴，也没有表现什么。依种族而言，售票员是马来人（三十多岁），被骂的人是年轻（十多岁）印度人。这，对当事人行动时的顾虑有什么影响，又对周遭看到的人有什么冲击？

On the way back from Camp Cameron, I saw this incident that I don't know how to respond to when I was waiting for bus at bus terminal.

That day, after I bought my bus ticket, I found a place to put my luggage while waiting for the bus. Out of a sudden, Ｉheard the sound of someone scolding from behind. I turned my head, and saw this man shouting at the other man. At first, I felt indifferent since this is not a rare case. But suddenly, the shouting man slapped the other man. Honestly, I was in shock. So I started to listen, see if I can get any clue of what's happening. The man scolded again before he slapped the other man twice. The man's sunglasses flew. Then the shouting man left the place.

The shouting man is a bus ticket salesman. According to my understanding from what I heard, the man, who is being scolded, asked the price of the bus ticket. Not sure if it was because of communication error or the salesman acted too fast, the bus ticket was printed out. But the man already bought a bus ticket from another company. The salesman felt cheated and so looked for an argue with the man.

The things that comes into my mind are: Why did the salesman do that? The one being scolded, how did he feel? He did not shouted back to the man and neither did he respond. Regarding races, the salesman is a Malay in his thirty, and the one being scolded is a young Indian in his teen. This, however, incurred anything when the persons involved take actions? And, what impact did this give to the audience?

最后的系聚会

昨天，11/6，考完了四年大学生涯的最后一张试卷
接下来，和系友们就只剩下FYP的viva了

5:30pm过后，大家就启程去紫薇园吃芋头鱼肉火炭锅
过后，看戏，再加第二round
过了将近九个钟头，终于回到家了

大家都有点舍不得
最后一次的一起出动
虽然有些不能出席的
也许没有下次，也许下次在毕业典礼那段时间吧

有机会做了四年的系友
接下来，工作的工作，升学的升学
不同的路，却在起点的时候遇见了
在槟城的人，还是不难见到彼此，但也不会像以前一样
不在槟城的几个，就更难见到了
四年的友谊，没有太深，却也不是点头之交
有摩擦，有合作
同样的回忆，却会有不一样的延续

也许，下次的再会，除了毕业典礼，就应该是谁谁谁的婚礼了…
希望大家都好好加油
愿神在祂的时间里，让你们认识祂
不知我在你们生命中的这几年，会否成为你们更接近神，更有机会认识祂？

PS他们都不可能看到这篇的，但是却想写下，让自己记得，让自己可以回忆

本地 外地

日子一天一天过，限期也一天一天接近
虽然现在学会了以更自在的心情来看待
但是还是要想想自己还有的后路＋机会

现在奖学金越来越难申请到
今天又听到消息，阿公今年只给本地（阿公没钱了？）
想来想去，也不是很懂有什么是有机会的
剩优异学生计划比较有机会
也许，这是祂开给我的唯一一个门呢？

阿公不给国外，让另一个朋友更确定
神关了她的这个门，应该就是安心进去那唯一一个门吧

不管怎样，神带领至今，凭信心走下去
人的尽头是神的开始
更何况，我还有指望
所以，在指望中要喜乐，在患难中要忍耐，祷告要恒切！=D（罗12:12）