Special, Strange but Great

Today, I have a weird and funny experience.

I was not in a mood of doing anything or staying in the room this afternoon. So I walked to nowhere in Oxford.

When I was walking along the street opposite to Christ Church College, at one of the bus stop, an old man smile slightly to me and I returned the smile out of politeness. Then he started to speak to me, asking me whether I'm a Malaysian or Singaporean. I had no idea and still not about how he recognised that. I suppose Malaysian/Singaporean have a special feature in outlook. Then he started to ask questions and me answering. He is a visiting fellow from Singapore for a week. I felt he is having homesick, really homesick when he said he wanted to go back to Singapore earlier before the planned journey.

That's a total stranger start talking on the street. That's really a new experience. Anyway, it's more than that. I was really feeling bad and wanted to talk to either someone really close or someone totally strange. But 'someone really close' is nowhere to be found at the moment. Thank God for somehow cure me a bit. I have no idea how this happens and no idea what has happened but I felt better after the talking.

Something from Supernatural

Supernatural s8e14,

Sam-to-Kevin: "This 'saving the world' thing is marathon, not sprint. Take better care of yourself."

I'll say to myself, DPhil is marathon, not sprint, take good care of myself and have life! =D

New insight

Just have a new insight today.

People always say pray for the wisdom to say 'no' to some people if you yourself is too busy to help.
Today something comes into my mind. If I don't want to say 'no' and I want to help them but I'm too busy, am I going to pray for the wisdom to say 'no'?

I'll prefer to pray for the wisdom to finish my thing in a shorter time so that I have more time for others. I'll prefer to pray for the wisdom to be able to help them and to have time for my own.

Anyway, I'm not saying that praying for the wisdom to say 'no' is wrong. It's perfectly alright. If you really want to say 'no' but you don't know how to do it nicely, pray for it. If you don't want to say 'no', then there is no point pray for the wisdom to say 'no'.

Pray for the wisdom to decide.

Cheers =D

Something just emerges from having gastric pain

There are some pain that you want it to go away, but it won't. You need to accept the presence of the pain, learn to live with the pain, only then the pain will go away.

The pain is there for you to learn something, not to just go away.

Doing ... Thinking

I'm good at doing, but not thinking enough.

I know how to do, I do fast, I do much.
But I have let 'doing' to enhance more than thinking.

REMEMBER, to think more, to think much more than what I see, more than what I read.

do 'thinking' more than do 'doing'~

Doubt

Did I do the right thing? Did I make the right choice? I know I'm not that good, but using the word disappointed..ya, I suppose I would use it on myself as well. Tensed for being expected high.

Time is real tight for me to do everythg so that shall mean I should be used to the place, to the environment, to the time zone, to the culture, in no time. And start with everythg right away. There is no time tolerance for me. Well, I guess I didn't really prepared my mind well enough before I came. I guess I'm a slow fast learner.

Always, there's some pains before I can actually gain..

it's time...

到牛津5天了，看着Bones第八季的第五集时，看到这段

You've been great, but I think we both know it's time I face the world on my own.

突然觉得好像那天我从建伟家出来，要飞来英国时的感受… 虽然人是在牛津，但是还是缺乏那份的真实感。昨晚还梦见我在马来西亚，买不到机票，不能飞了。醒来后才想到自己已经是在牛津了。不知那是一份的失落感还是什么…也许，是还没机会去和人交流。等星期六吧，等下星期吧。

还是要对自己说，it's time I face the world on my own. 当然，还有上帝在陪我，周围再怎么的不顺利，再怎么的不熟悉，神的话我还是熟悉，祂的带领还是最可以依赖的…